One of the first things I say after a Hemiplegic Migraine episode and I am actually able to put words together is “I’m Sorry”. And now that I have learned to sign, “I’m Sorry”, I say it before I even get my voice back. Why do I feel like I need to apologize? It’s not like I can help it. I am doing everything I can to get better management of my migraines.
I apologize because there is nothing else to do and I apologize because my life feels like it is spinning out of control. The need to apologize may be because I had to cancel plans or I had to wake my husband up in the middle of the night. There are a myriad of reasons why I feel like I must say Say that I am sorry. But most of all, I am apologizing because I am frustrated and I hate this illness that has taken over my life.
Does apologizing help? Nope! But it does give a voice to all the things I am feeling…in just 2 words.
The next time you say you are sorry, ask yourself “What am I sorry for?”.