What is a wall? It is that ugly thing at the end of your energy. You do not have to have a chronic illness to have one because no one has endless amounts of energy.
Sometimes getting ready for the day (showering, brushing hair and teeth, getting dressed, etc.) slams me right into it. Then there are days that I actually have enough energy left to get out of the house. And yes, some days I wake up and I am mere inches from that wall.
So, what is the difference between my wall and yours? Location! You probably don’t even notice yours on most days because it sits so far away. Most likely you will get through your entire day without even getting close to it. For me, it just sits there waiting for me to push too hard. I never know when I will get so close to it that I collapse. It is always lurking…sitting there taunting me.
What happens when I hit my wall? Fortunately, I am learning to listen to my body and the signals it sends If I am getting a little too close. I have been stubborn and pushed myself way too hard and I crashed into the wall with such force that I have a severe Hemiplegic Migraine where the paralysis can last for hours, the pain will last for days and the exhaustion can take a week to recover from. This is my worst case scenario and it is what my wall looks like. It isn’t pretty when it happens and I do my best to avoid it.
Anyone that has a chronic illness has a limit that is closer than they would like it to be. Everyone that battles for every ounce of energy…every single day has a wall that lurks. But each person will experience the crash in different ways.