This past November my best friend passed away after a long fight with breast cancer. The thing is that for all but her last 2 weeks you wouldn’t have known she was sick. She really did live her life on her on terms and fought the good fight. Her passing really threw me off kilter. Yes, she had stage 4 breast cancer for 3 years but she wasn’t sick the majority of that time. She came home with Hospice on a Wednesday and was gone by Friday.
I physically pushed myself to be there…to do everything I could to keep the room calm and to let her husband hold her hand. Her husband decided what needed to happen and I made sure it did. We both knew how she would want those moments to be. I feel so blessed to have been given the privilege of making sure that my dearest friend passed with her dignity. I will never forget the last breathe as my dearest friend’s life left this world.
So, that made me realize that I need to do more of what I can do and focus on less of what I can’t do. That is exactly what she did…she knew she would die but she didn’t focus on it. SHE LIVED her life in spite of it and we can all take a lesson from that!
What Does this Mean for my Life?
I have let fear of my illness control me. It is time to stand and face it! It is time to write a list of things I want to do and start doing them. Will it be the same as it once would of been…no! I will be traveling using my wheelchair or walker. Will that be the ruin of the trip…not if I don’t allow it to be.
So, we are marking off an item on our list! We just booked our trip to Washington DC! This is a trip we have talked about for 10 years! Because of my physical limitations and near daily migraines, I have no idea what the trip will be like. We are planning 1 activity a day and leaving plenty of time for rest.
It is time to stop talking and start doing! It is time to stop allowing my limitations to be a reason to stop. Life is too short to stop!