• Mask, chronic illness, migraine,Hemiplegic Migraine

    Taking Off the Mask

    I, like most people with a chronic illness, am really good at hiding how I feel. I wear a mask, a facade. If you ask me how I am doing, I will probably say okay or fine. I want desperately to be normal…to have normal days with normal ups and downs. The mask is there just so I can “feel” like everyone else. I don’t want to be the Debbie Downer that is always talking about her illness. You see, I used to be independent and loved to try new things. If I wanted to go somewhere, I went even if it meant going by myself. I sang in my…

  • The Emergency Room Migraine Stigma - #migraine #chronicmigraine #health #healthcare #stigma

    I Am Not a Drug Seeker

    Do you want to know what it is like to be treated like a drug seeker? Go to the ER and tell them you have a migraine. Often times you are talked down too, disrespected, made to feel like you are a bother to everyone around you. They often give you strong narcotics in an IV and send you on your way because they think they have given you what you want. But those narcotics give you re-bound headaches so you are caught in a vicious cycle. The type Of Migraine that I have is rare. Approximately 20,000 in the US have this type of Migraine. What I have is…

  • Hard week, sick, migraine, medication

    Hard Week and Frustration

    Honestly, this has been a hard week. I had a reaction to one of my medications. It just so happens to be the one that keeps the fluid pressure from building up around my brain. My right eye was swollen, my kidneys were not functioning well and I had absolutely no appetite at all! So My Doctor had me go off the medication immediately instead of his normal taper off schedule. Let me just tell you that as the week has progressed it has just been bad. Vision issues, inability to talk. Paralysis (all part of the aura) has been horrendous! The headaches that have followed have not really been eased…

  • What my life was before chronic illness took over. - #chronicillness #migraine #chronicmigraine #hemiplegicmigraine #thefrozenmind

    What Life Used to Be

    In order to explain what has been taken from me, I must explain what my life used to be. At one time I had a sarcastic wit and loved to make people laugh. I sang on the praise team at church and was heavily involved in the women’s ministry. With 2 grown kids, 2 grown step kids and 6 step grandchildren. I could always be found at a sport event depending on the season…baseball, football, tball, softball…you name it. I also loved to cook…and did a lot of cooking! Before I got sick, I also owned my own virtual assistant business and I had 7 clients that I managed websites…

  • Step, journey, migraine

    The First Step

    As I begin the journey of posting about my life with a chronic illness…more specifically Hemiplegic Migraine…I decided that before I can explain how it effects me and my life that I need to explain what it is. I must take the first step. WebMD’s definition is as close to perfect as I can find. “Hemiplegic migraine is a rare and serious type of migraine headache. Many of its symptoms mimic those common to stroke; for example, muscle weakness can be so extreme that it causes a temporary paralysis on one side of your body, which doctors call hemiplegia.” What does that mean? What does it REALLY mean? It means…